My heart goes out to you at a hugely difficult time in your life. The reality of what I have learned watching my sister cope with this dreadful disease, is that there are not a lot of answers out there, especially at the beginning of the journey. It is hard to even get a firm, diagnosis and each person's progression is different from another I think it is very important to take things day by day and to build a circle of support. I am sure your head is all over the place but you do need to try and take a deep breath Please contact your local MNDA support group and ask your GP about counselling. There are so many lovely people out there ready to give you love, help and support.