Hi Everyone,
It's been quite some time since I've had chance to come on the forum. I must say, I am incredibly saddened to hear of so many 'familiar faces' that are no longer with us.
I hope the rest of you are doing as well as you possibly can (and a very Merry Christmas to you all!)
I just really wanted to pop my head in and say hello
Things have been quite difficult for me, emotionally, since around September- seems MND really took a hit, but decided to wait a few months after Gran's passing to rear it's ugly head. I'd been prescribed some beta-blockers to control some panic attacks and general anxiety that seemed to be with me constantly- things are only just starting to get better for me now (annoyingly, it's all health-anxiety-related; not surprising, under the circumstances). I was on the waiting list for CBT via the NHS, but couldn't wait, so I attempted to apply the same techniques by myself- luckily, it seems to have really helped and I no longer feel I need the help of a professional (yay).
It's very strange, but my mind doesn't seem to let me think about Gran very often- I don't know whether it's because the experience of losing her was just too traumatic for my mind to handle or whether it's because I spent so long in the anticipatory grief state that my mind has just said 'enough'. I'm sure, with time, I'll be able to 'let' myself think about her a lot more. Which brings us nicely into Christmas- it was always Gran's favourite time of year. She would decorate her house like a grotto, feed mountains of food to any guest that arrived and bought so many thoughtful gifts for her friends and family. I really wanted to celebrate this year, in her memory, and go all-out with the decorations, but a surprise (happy) twist in the year hasn't made it possible.
I'm currently sat at my dining room table (I'm meant to be working, but would rather talk to you lovely people!), surrounded by boxes!
My fiancé and I were planning on buying a house this year, having saved very hard for the last 4 years. Well, in September, we finally found one that we love!
It's a new build, on the border of the Cotswolds, and we've been given a fixed date for completion next Friday Nice Christmas present, for sure!
In hindsight, it probably wasn't the smartest idea for us, having both recently been through the losses of close family members (Gran on my side and my fiancé's Dad died suddenly in June), to go through the utter stress that is involved with a house purchase. However, we were both of the opinion that, considering we've both had a really rubbish time of it this year (and a couple of years before that, due to my Mum having passed away, too), we just had to finish this year on a high (start next year as we mean to go on, kind of thing).
I'm sure, given the circumstances, Gran wouldn't have minded my omitting to put the Christmas tree up, this year (we're having double-Christmas next year, to make up for it!)
As expected, none of the other family members have been in touch this year- I am not giving any of them my new address and I will be omitting them from my life completely (social media, phone and such-like). I'm only surrounding myself with positive, lovely people, from now on
I'd love to hear from you all- please do let me know how you're all getting on <3
Chrissie xx
It's been quite some time since I've had chance to come on the forum. I must say, I am incredibly saddened to hear of so many 'familiar faces' that are no longer with us.
I hope the rest of you are doing as well as you possibly can (and a very Merry Christmas to you all!)
I just really wanted to pop my head in and say hello
Things have been quite difficult for me, emotionally, since around September- seems MND really took a hit, but decided to wait a few months after Gran's passing to rear it's ugly head. I'd been prescribed some beta-blockers to control some panic attacks and general anxiety that seemed to be with me constantly- things are only just starting to get better for me now (annoyingly, it's all health-anxiety-related; not surprising, under the circumstances). I was on the waiting list for CBT via the NHS, but couldn't wait, so I attempted to apply the same techniques by myself- luckily, it seems to have really helped and I no longer feel I need the help of a professional (yay).
It's very strange, but my mind doesn't seem to let me think about Gran very often- I don't know whether it's because the experience of losing her was just too traumatic for my mind to handle or whether it's because I spent so long in the anticipatory grief state that my mind has just said 'enough'. I'm sure, with time, I'll be able to 'let' myself think about her a lot more. Which brings us nicely into Christmas- it was always Gran's favourite time of year. She would decorate her house like a grotto, feed mountains of food to any guest that arrived and bought so many thoughtful gifts for her friends and family. I really wanted to celebrate this year, in her memory, and go all-out with the decorations, but a surprise (happy) twist in the year hasn't made it possible.
I'm currently sat at my dining room table (I'm meant to be working, but would rather talk to you lovely people!), surrounded by boxes!
My fiancé and I were planning on buying a house this year, having saved very hard for the last 4 years. Well, in September, we finally found one that we love!
It's a new build, on the border of the Cotswolds, and we've been given a fixed date for completion next Friday
Nice Christmas present, for sure!In hindsight, it probably wasn't the smartest idea for us, having both recently been through the losses of close family members (Gran on my side and my fiancé's Dad died suddenly in June), to go through the utter stress that is involved with a house purchase. However, we were both of the opinion that, considering we've both had a really rubbish time of it this year (and a couple of years before that, due to my Mum having passed away, too), we just had to finish this year on a high (start next year as we mean to go on, kind of thing).
I'm sure, given the circumstances, Gran wouldn't have minded my omitting to put the Christmas tree up, this year (we're having double-Christmas next year, to make up for it!)
As expected, none of the other family members have been in touch this year- I am not giving any of them my new address and I will be omitting them from my life completely (social media, phone and such-like). I'm only surrounding myself with positive, lovely people, from now on
I'd love to hear from you all- please do let me know how you're all getting on <3
Chrissie xx
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