Hi everyone,
It's my first post but I had been popping into the forum over the last year and a half and found it extremely helpful. My hubby died on 10 March 2020, 7 months after his diagnosis of MND. It was a quick progression with every day bringing a new challenge. My hubby was extremely brave in the face of everything and MND never took away his spirit, love and zest for life. He never wanted to die, even at the most difficult times. Anyway, it's a year on now. He died a week or so before the first lock down so, for most of the year, it's been me, myself and I. Love never dies and so I still love him as much now as then. His absence is all too present. That hug, kiss, joke, dancing in the kitchen, drumming of fingers on every household implement, watching our favourite programme together, doing nothing together, walking, going for lunch, laughing. All missed. He was such a vibrant, funny and lively person. We spent 13 lovely years together and he had just turned 60 when he died. A very young 60
I just wanted to say to all those in the very early stages of grief, it does get better albeit it is always there. I'm still 'surviving' rather than 'living' and some days/nights are just so difficult. We didn't have children together so it's me, my cats and dog. I am working from home as well. My office is what was his music studio, still filled with his CD's, guitars etc. It is a comforting room. It can be isolating but I feel very blessed and proud to have had hubby in my life. I can start to look at photo's and remember good times now, although still tinged with sadness. I know at a year on, this is still early in grief. But I do feel I have moved forward, even if it's just a little.
I love this little quote which, when I read it, made me sit up and think (and cry! a lot of that!) "I wanted to spend the rest of my life with you and then I realised you spent the rest of your life with me".
Love to you all <3
It's my first post but I had been popping into the forum over the last year and a half and found it extremely helpful. My hubby died on 10 March 2020, 7 months after his diagnosis of MND. It was a quick progression with every day bringing a new challenge. My hubby was extremely brave in the face of everything and MND never took away his spirit, love and zest for life. He never wanted to die, even at the most difficult times. Anyway, it's a year on now. He died a week or so before the first lock down so, for most of the year, it's been me, myself and I. Love never dies and so I still love him as much now as then. His absence is all too present. That hug, kiss, joke, dancing in the kitchen, drumming of fingers on every household implement, watching our favourite programme together, doing nothing together, walking, going for lunch, laughing. All missed. He was such a vibrant, funny and lively person. We spent 13 lovely years together and he had just turned 60 when he died. A very young 60
I just wanted to say to all those in the very early stages of grief, it does get better albeit it is always there. I'm still 'surviving' rather than 'living' and some days/nights are just so difficult. We didn't have children together so it's me, my cats and dog. I am working from home as well. My office is what was his music studio, still filled with his CD's, guitars etc. It is a comforting room. It can be isolating but I feel very blessed and proud to have had hubby in my life. I can start to look at photo's and remember good times now, although still tinged with sadness. I know at a year on, this is still early in grief. But I do feel I have moved forward, even if it's just a little.
I love this little quote which, when I read it, made me sit up and think (and cry! a lot of that!) "I wanted to spend the rest of my life with you and then I realised you spent the rest of your life with me".
Love to you all <3
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